That agonizing moment
The bitter sweet farewell kiss between Park Sihoo-ssi’s Choi Dokyung and Seo Jian in KBS drama “My Golden Life” Episode 18 heated up the TV screens and became the talk in K-drama. It was the highest viewed video clip on Naver online TV during recent times, drawing around 500, 000 viewings in a week! Daebak!
The farewell kiss that heated up the screens
But in its wake, last weekend, in Episode 19, we saw the most agonizing moment. Choi Dokyung found himself unconsciously behaving like a fool around her and that she was also trying to avoid him. The end was drawing near when they have to tell his parents the truth and the explosion would surely come. He had to pull the hard brake on their growing awareness of love between them.
And he did it in the most ruthless, brutal and cruel way. Agonizing just to watch that scene knowing how both of them cared about each other.
Their final meeting started calm, turned into accusation and then into cruel hard words when push came to shove.
You go your way, I will go mine
The final cut was the most cruel and devastating when he put down what they have experienced to nothing. Yes he was attracted to her, so what if they kissed, they could kiss a hundred times and even sleep together because she was not his sister. But, don’t have any expectations of him. There would be no future for them, they will take different paths and live different lives. She can do anything she wanted with her life and he would definitely marry Jang Sora and live his life as it is.
Agonizing just to watch!
But one of the best performances by both Park Sihoo-ssi and Sun Hyesun-ssi! Not to be missed!
KBS Youtube Video – “My Golden Life” Episode 19 We have different paths
https://youtu.be/QadTJQLSfw8
“我黄金光辉的人生”：辛酸痛苦的时刻
在KBS电视剧“我黄金光辉的人生”第18集中，施厚君饰演的崔道京和徐智安之间的辛酸的告别之吻激化了电视屏幕，成为了韩剧中的热门话题，是Naver在线电视上观看次数最多的视频片段，一周之内吸引了大约50万观众！ 大卖 Daebak！
Choi Dokyung unconsciously concerned, frantic with worry
但上周末在第18集中，观看到了最辛酸痛苦的时刻。崔道京发现自己不知不觉的举动有点像个傻瓜，而徐智安也一直试图躲避他。结局已经逼近，就快要告诉他的父母真相的时候了。到时，肯定是个轰动的爆炸。他不得不对他们之间越来越明显的爱意加以阻止。
他以最残忍残酷的方式去砍断他们之间的关系。观看这个场景时，真的为他们感到辛酸痛苦。
他们的最后一次见面开始是冷静，然后变成了指责，最后是残酷硬性的语气。
The final brutal and devastating cut
最后一幕是最残忍，他把他们所经历的一切都一扫而光。是的，她吸引了他，他们亲吻了，又怎么样？他们可以亲吻一百遍，甚至一起睡，因为她不是他的妹妹。但是，她不要对他有任何的期望。他们没有前途，要走不同的道路，过着不同的人生。她可以选择过着自己喜欢的人生，做任何自己喜欢事情，而他一定会跟张索拉结婚，过着他一贯的人生。
观看了都感到辛酸痛苦！
但这是施厚君和申惠善的最佳表演之一！不容错过！
Credits – Many thanks! KBS drama
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#朴施厚# #我黃金光輝的人生# 多麽令人心痛和心碎的一幕，但也顯示出，施厚和女主角優秀和精湛的演技。真的不容錯過啊，令人百看不厭，令人回味和深深投入他們難過又無奈的處境，好虐心呢！
This will be the ONE most fantastic scene of all MGL todate that I want to see. I will LOVE to see. Because from end of episode 16 the very 1st awakening sign of the sleeping CDK real self, even before I see this scene, by mere looking at the photos you put here, by reading what Stefania Lupu has commented (yesterday) about CDK’s reaction to Jian. I am fully with CDK, the hurt inside him is far bigger than Jian because he is the one who spoke completely opposite his heart. And he chose the harshest words so that Jian will be completely put off. The same effect that when you want to kill a chicken, you got to be brutal and fast, cut the throat deep so that the chicken dies there and then, not soft heartedlly small cut the poor chicken cannot die there and then and suffered further. CDK is being kind in my eyes when he chose to be mean in this scene that I am going to watch. Unlike all those earlier episodes, when he was acting kind gestures towards Jian but mean at critical times, I don’t like that CDK. But now his soul has been attracted by Jian the goodness in Jian that he himself so lacking or lying dormant, now, he is really in turmoil, as Dorothy said in turmoil to not jeorpardise his Choi position yet his heart is seeking for the goodness of humanity. Only now he is in turmoil. Before that, nuh, he wasn’t in any conflicted turmoil. He was a meany before his soul start to awaken. Simply Sensational, Bravo Bravo Bravo to writer So and director, and of course our Sihoossi and Jian (sorry people as i said I only learnt one K actor name, that is Park SiHoo).
Although in a previous comment I’ve criticized Do Kyung’s attitude towards Jian, with his harsh, cruel, brutal words addressed to her only to make her understand that a kiss doesn’t mean they are lovers and each of them must follow his/her path in life, I do pitty him. Because deep in his heart he has opened the gates for his love for Jian, but being an honest person he can’t continue a love relation with her as he has agreed to marry Sora. As his friend told him:”Since you’ve agreed to be engaged and marry Sora, you haven’t any woman in your life.”. So he tries to be honest in keeping his word, not saying things he cannot do. What he says has much value. Although being honest he can hurt Jian, his purpose is to help her understand that they can’t be in a love relation.Although he suffers a lot , he must take decisions in being honest and truthful.A real man will be honest no matter how painful the truth is. And the painful truth for Do Kyung and Jian has turned into an agonizing moment.
Completely agree. I stole a peep at that scene which I will only watch come this weekend, I can see the real hurt in his eyes. The more harsh the words he chose, the deeper these words cut into himself. And this is the beginning of another cycle of CDK coming out of his buried soul. We all have faith from here on no matter how much he would err on his actions and decisions, this man from now on , cannot be in too big a variation towards his golden path golden life.
I am with you here. As parksihoossi said, the final cut was the most cruel and devastating but at least, he is being honest. When challenged by Jian, he does not deny he is attracted to her. But there is no future and therefore, a clean break is needed. He has to be cruel to be kind.
My favourite scene in Episode 19, besides this, is when he unknowingly follows Jian around in the event hall, his eyes always seeking her out, smiling unwittingly. Then he is confronted by his friend, Ki Jae. And, the panic when Jian is missing after burning her hand on the iron. He has no idea…how hard he has fallen in love, the poor man.
Ji An, with his back against the wall, became vulnerable and lacking courage. She did not do the same thing as she did another time, that is, to ask for help from CDK as soon as Choi mother called her. She hesitated, postponed the moment, wishing to tell Do Kyung personally that the moment of confession had come.
It’s true what you say, Nance, “he had to pull the hard brake on their growing awareness of love between them.” But not like this, and not at that moment. Do Kyung was selfish, he put his feelings in front, because he was panicked by the overwhelming wave of love that comprised his heart and his thoughts. After throwing those heavy words, he left, no longer interested in the reason why Ji An wanted to see him personally. Lack of consideration. I did not like it at all. He apologized with that laconic message after things got calmer a little, but too late. I do not think that Ji An could be comforted in her tragedy by this message, which looks like a big final point at their relationship. I’d like Ji An not to look for him anymore, and not ask him for any help. He disappointed her. He did not understand being near her, when she was most in need of him.
I don’t like what he did either. But think about this. He thought of himself first, so he is considered selfish. His apologies afterwards is too late. He disappointed her. He hurt her. Now, think back about what Seo Jian did to her father. She also put herself first and told her father in no uncertain terms she wanted to go. She apologised afterwards. Equally, she was late. She hurt her father who loves her badly. If CDK is considered selfish. so was SJA. That was my take. No consideration or thought of the person they spoke to, it was all about what they wanted then. Doesn’t matter if the other party is hurt or what they wanted. So in that respect, they are alike.
If we look this way the things, yes, you’re right Nance. Each has his own manifestation of selfishness.
But here’s a love affair between a man and a woman. Not about love between child and parent. I think there may be two different things. Consequently, the same selfish behavior manifested by the two hurts differently, depending on the context and the interlocutor.
And, in fact, it’s not a love relationship, because besides accepting the kiss so called for parting (it’s just a kiss, isn’t it?), I don’t think Ji An gave Do Kyung reasons to believe that she is in love with him. Just us we know about that. It’s about his feelings, they are the ones that torment him and scare him. All those harsh words were said more to him, but they were not said in thought, but in a loud voice, in front of Ji An.
Daniela Maria Miricescu I woke up this morning having some thoughts in my head about this equating CDK’s scene towards Jian (which I haven’t watched but can almost understand with the words of what he said in synopsis of photos and videos, because by now I have a firmer grasped of what type of person CDK has been and where he is heading now) and the scene of Jian’s towards her father, as alike, as selfish because they tick the boxes of Nance’s reasoning of selfish. Tick number 1, the speaker only think of him/herself , tick number 2, the speaker said words in no uncertain terms, tick number 3 the speaker apologised shortly afterwards. All same same, so yes, why can’t we equate CDK’s selfishness ,since Daniela called it selfish this time, so Nance too has the right reasoning to apply same scene same criteria to call Jian’s selfish in the scene talking with father, which a few of us strongly did not agree back then. As Daniela has replied before me, “”If we look this way the things, yes, you’re right Nance. Each has his own manifestation of selfishness.”” . When it comes to judging (I hate to use the word judging, but then what are we doing here, we are all judges of MGL characters, each casting our own vote of approval or disapproval, so yes, judging is the word) when we come to judge human behavior, there is no one stick of rule that can be applied and ticking boxes of criteria and conclude. I hope all jury going into court don’t go in with a book of list of criteria and tick them yes and no to arrive at their verdict. I remember I challenged my back then mentor from Singapore back in the 1980s said to him, why was he so unfair because when the inventory supervisor went to Singapore for visit, she wasn’t needed to write a report to him, whereas when he sent me to visit Singapore head office, I must come back with an official report. My mentor explained to me that in human dealing, there is no one rule and one criteria. Each has to be assessed and considered individually, even in the work enviroment and a similar type of Malaysian staff visiting Singapore head office. My mentor said to me imagine if he were to insist a report from that inventory surpervisor, it will completely spoil her trip because she isn’t capable of writing a report, she is a doer, she is not a report writer. However in my case, asking me to write a report will only do good to me this young and learning executive. I instantly see his wisdom and since then he taught me many things of human interactions, til today he is still my strong mentor. Therefore I like to share my experience that in the human world, it is not a case of ticking criteria to be labelled the same results. That is my view, completely personal view. In addition, I wanted to say by the look of the eyes of Jian when she blasted her words to her father, those eyes of Jian were of begging her father to understand the inside of Jian and the sufferings and that lately she had been driven to the edge of just about to jump off the cliff that kind of eyes. Those are eyes of baring herself completely “naked” to her father, there is nothing that Jian was hiding what she said to her father is all the truth which she has not been divulging to any member of her family. She tried all her best to live her days in that most distraught stage of her life when she often was hungry for either not enough money to buy food or no time to eat. Can we remember how pathetic that trunk show where she walloped a few free biscuits as the food of the day, or another day when she held back from a bigger size of lunch on the shelf. Safety was number 1 in human needs, hunger and thirst is 2nd basic need. Jian was down to that kind of days. So she spoke out all inside of her, absolutely honest presenting her case to her father, so tell me why I should not go to my real parents when they are rich? I don’t call that anger coming out from Jian, I call that pleading to be heard, pleading the world around her, ie her family which she dare not burden, but now that the father so brooched the subject but not giving her a solid reason, she raised her voice to say those things she has never said to anyone, no one about her misgivings, that’s the only one time to make sure the father heard her, not just her, but voices inside her. CDK’s raising voice to make his case, would be a completely different agenda, and I can fully feel the words of Daniela, CDK’s raising his voice is to block out that overpowering fear inside himself of his liking towards this forbidden love, yes critieria 1, 2, 3 of Nance’s ticked, but my mentor words of that Singapore report thing came to my mind. Is not the same.
Chai Hua Loke When it comes to human emotions, nothing is ever the same. In fact, I never ticked any boxes in both cases.The thing that drove me has always been love and relationships and thinking about the other party. It was only yesterday when I read Daniela’s comments that I put them into boxes as comparison because they were so similar. Jian pleaded for understanding because she wanted to get away from her sufferings. She did blast at her father no matter how it was expressed, her father was at the receiving end of the anger. Someone who had poured all of his love and efforts to make things work for his family and yet he cannot do well. That was his suffering and Jian rubbed salt into that wound. How he must have felt and she knew how hard her father had tried but at that point, it was all about herself, that selfish moment even though she might not have been selfish all her life. The same went with CDK, he was facing a woman whom he has “fallen” for and whom he thought love him in return (doesn’t matter if she really did or ever said but that was what he perceived). He was being selfish thinking only of himself then and how he had to stop it. He was suffering because he was causing her to suffer (you can see that emotional turmoil in his eyes) and yet he blasted at her in anger and berated what they have shared together. So to me, even though the type of love/relationship is different, the circumstances are different, that same selfish act is being played out.
Park Sihoo-ssi 박시후 씨 Thank you for your reply. I am glad to hear it isn’t your usual style to go about comparing with yes or no and verdict. As it goes to show you are strong principled lady who hold strong to your belief, and this scene about Jian acting “”selfish”” towards the father will forever rests its case in history with split opinions. The clear thing at that conversation to me is the father wasn’t saying please don’t go yet because this is too sudden and I needed time to adjust, he was saying you must not go. The words must not go when that’s real parents is the reason Jian needed to exert her point of view. If the father has said please don’t go yet, take some time let us think further and work around, if those were the father’s words, I dare bet Jian’s reactions will be different. The words must not go coming out from the father yet no reason given is the thing that don’t sit right with me however pathetic the father was in front of her. Given consideration to other people feelings, to me, need to be acted upon with effectiveness, going along the pathetic path of feeling together only yield more pathetic results is my experience. I had a staff who would come into the office and cried everyday. For her loneliness and sorrow. Instead of giving her pity and let her cry on, as her manager, I ordered her to go wash her face, pull herself together to act tough and pull herself out of that miserable thought process mode. Is only being harsh on such weak moment that you could jolt the person out of a pathetic frame of mind. Jian ought to be acknowledged for her maturity and bravity in facing the toughness of reality yet delicate old father in front of her. Jian’s mental ability is not like Jisu, taking the view that by going to Choi you are actually confirming that our parents failed. That should not be a view to be promoted as positive thinking. It may appear as such to people who want to form negative outlook but how could a person honestly crossed her conscience that when you found you real parents, so I must not go to these real parents because doing so means my adoptive parents have failed. I personally like both real parents and adoptive parents be it rich or poor to think win win, not a case that when one is poor, choosing the rich means a confirmation the poor has failed. This type of thinking I don’t encouraged. So Jian chose her mannerism not because she is rubbing salts on wounds. When you have that idea that it is rubbing salts on father’s wound, that is because the father so chose to blame himself. But in honesty, did Jian ever blame her bad state on the failing of the father’s financial? I do not recall any indicators of such in MGL. If she has not therefore her natural conscience as she spoke intensively about how she viewed her case wasn’t with any intention to ridicule her father, and the father knew too that his daughter chose to go not because he failed her, but because the wife threatened Jian. Though on conversation he said to Jian that he knows he has not been capable enough to provide, such are words you say when talking, but deep inside the father, I don’t believe the father’s devastation is all because of his financial failing that Jian went, the real devastation is he couldn’t bring himself to tell her the truth that she is not Eunseok hence he lost Jian to Chois. I can go on and on and you will come back on and on 🙂 Each of our outlook and perception can be so different. On that note, I look forward to hearing your views of why you find the confession to girlfriend’s scene that Jian’s motive wasn’t that pure either…. I am still scratching my head, as I said, the confession scene came to me as a complete opposite perception to yours, to you, the not so pure motive Jian has finally revealed, whereas to me, I saw it as yet another confirmation by writer So that the Jian is a girl who always has thoughts for others, the once she did for herself, which is after being threatened by Seo mother, that once time she did for herself to seek a better living, yet not getting approval voices from all viewers. Viewers are completely split. So I want to hear the views of that confession scene to Jian’s girlfriend 🙂 🙂 if you may spare me your views.
Chai Hua Loke Like you say, the issue of Jian being “selfish” will forever be a split opinion because we are not the only ones who see this differently. We can go on and on but let us just agree to disagree. I have not seen anything that so far will change my mind that moves Jian out of that “shelfish” moment when it came to her father. To me, what is said and what is not said is subject to the audience interpretation and perception.One thing though I don’t recollect is that the father knew his wife threatened Jian. On the point of confession to her best friend, my interpretation was that this was a scene when all dam broke loose and her bestie would be her sounding board to hear everything that is in her heart that she could tell no one. She had nothing to hide. What she said then would be straight off her chest.Why can it not be that going to the chaebol was exactly what she wanted that moment because of all the difficulties and hurdles she was facing then? Couldn’t that have been her breaking point when she says “Hell, this is it, why should I not have a better life when it is offered and is right in front of me? I don’t care anymore, I just want to move on?” I see nothing there that showed that she is protecting her parent’s dignity. What her mother said about the Choi being able to threaten if she doesn’t go, there is nothing wrong, it is a fact, doesn’t put her mother in bad light. So again it boils down to what you see and what I see – differences in perceptions and interpretation.
Park Sihoo-ssi 박시후 씨 Knowing how busy you are with work, Nance, I actually do not feel like I want to respond to your this latest reply so that you can then let your mind rest and not needed to read my reply again. However because a couple of things in your reply that I thought I ought to clarify, because what you just said here, wasn’t what I was referring to.. So please bear with me, again. 1st of all, yes, father Seo knew his wife threatened Jian, that was clearly shown and he said to her in their living room that Jian wouldn’t have wanted to go if not because you (the wife) threatened her. Is too long now so I can’t tell you which episode. But there was such a clear scene, clear conversations between the Seo parents. The confession to girlfriend scene, if you just watch it without reflection, it does appear to a viewer that THAT got to be the real inner voice of Jian. However, my take is as the sequence of what MGL shown to viewers of how Jian decided that she will go to Choi, her 1st reaction was “”of course I am not going””, she stood outside their home in her a bit scantily dressed white light top, asked her mum whether she is pretty…, said to her mum that this is the house she lives all her life, this is her family, she of course not leaving them, and she leant on her mother with that practised cuteness coyly said “”let’s just live on like we are , ok, even now i know you are not my real parents, please mum, please?””. So this was Jian’s 1st reaction. Unlike what her words to her gf of “” you know what, when I knew my real parents are rich, I immediatly want to go to them. Friend said “”Immediately?”and Jian replied “”Yes, immediately.”” Back to the earlier episodes after that “”please mum please just live on like we are a family…Later in another scene mother Seo threatened JIan that Chois are not the type who will let them be. Then only Jian changed her mind (plus money pressure also looming closer). What I am saying is when Jian spoke so earnestly with convincing force to tell her gf, that “you know what, when I knew my real parents are rich, I immediately wanted to go to them.” Jian did not say to her gf about that wasn’t her 1st response to her parent, that was not the 1st reaction of Jian when she knew of real parents. But she chose words in confession that as soon as I know my real parents are rich, I want to go. This gives me the impression that Jian is being nice to her parents, and again, puttying herself last just like how she has been all her life. Then Jian added that she blamed herself for acting like the world has ended when she lost the job hence mother Seo concerned for her til mother Seo committed that mistake. Now it is this part that I interpret to be Jian saving the dignity of her mother for making such a big mistake. I am not saying the part where Jian didn’t mention mother Seo threatened her about Choi that would give her gf the impression that mother Seo’s dignity is protected. Back to those scenes, Jian did not know at all her mother saw the scene outside the police, and when she was in the house, she didn’t let out much signs that she was living it tough after she lost the job. But now on talking to her gf, she blamed herself for living like dead then hence mother commited such a big mistake because of her. This Jian only realised now that mother who was quite perceptive would have sensed her dead living days then, in fact back then, Jian did not let out a sign that she was defeated whenever she was home. She continued to thrive on. The same thing with Jian telling the gf that her father who did not tell her the truth is because again is Jian’s own fault because she crushed him, and these are words that she only picked out part of the situation to narrate to the friend. So anyone listening will feel less blame on the parents for making such a crime. But, when Jian was reflecting the many times on her own, in her thoughts, the immediate scenes after she discovered the lie, more than once, in her own thoughts, Jian said, father, even because of my bad behaviour, still father, you should have told me. Because that thing alone, regardless of time and place, regardless of my bad behaviour, makes the whole world of difference. This is the deep thinking inside of Jian, but when she described to her gf, she only stop at because the father was crushed by her, therefore, my friend, you cannot blame my father for not telling me such a big thing. If Jian is totally honestly telling everything inside her heart to a friend then, Jian would have said, yes, it’s totally my fault for crushing my father, but, still, for such a big thing, still , my father should have told me. But she didn’t utter one word to her gf, that “”still my father should have told me.”” Yet this plea of father you should have told me came up to Jian at the park seeing her father (where she stepped back to hide herself), in her dream in Seo’s house the very 1st sight of her father her very 1st reaction was “”father, why didn’t you tell me I am not the one.”” So food for thoughts if you care to give it a little bit more pondering. Or future rewatching of MGL But then, I fully respect your perception because of what you saw what you heard and how you interpret.:)
Also my interpretation is that girl no doubt is Jian’s close friend but she is not Jian’s bestie. If yes this girl would be the 1st person Jian sought out not Hyeok. Jian said in that scene she has no one she could call or see except him who though not really her top best mate but he is about the only person she felt she could have company. Jian doesn’t really has one bestie where she could really share 100% with. The occasional bumping into this gf gave Jian a chance to pour out but not to the extent of pouring 100%